Have you ever felt helpless, wishing you were by someone's side, yet you can't? I know you needed me now, yet i can't be there for you. Sorry my girl. Tears stream up when i hear you cry. Yet i felt so helpless not being able to be there. Sorry..
Its off tomorrow. Will be heading to JB for Fang's wedding. Was supposed to meet Kelly at Bugis to get there together, but made a last minute change. Jo's passport is still bearing her primary school pic. And we are worried msia custom may not let her through. Zarah's was with sec school pic and when she entered the custoom, they actually wanted to detain her for 24hrs. So kind of panicky here. Made a change to join the guys to leave from Kranji. Though its kinda far and out of the way but i guess its better to have some guys around than just having 3 girls. This is going to seems like some Beaufort gathering cos seems like lots of people are going..
Hopefully i'll kinda enjoy.
Why do tears fall for what we've promised to let go.. Why are words often easy said yet hard to be done.. 够了! 真的够了! 不想再听你的谎言....
Can someone just stop all the lies that you're giving me. I dont understand why some people just like to make empty promises and yet dont feel at wrong at all. Aww just get out of my life!
Today was a full day at home. Seems stupid. Was actually all dressed up, heading to town with sis. Opened up the main door, we were like "eh, why not stay home la" And yes, we shut the door and stayed home. Gonna meet KB for chat later after he ends work. He's one bro who never fails to stand by me. And yes, im loving my dear girl more and more. Thanks for going through all with me. She's non other than my Ebel. :)
Welcome back to Singapore Ben! yeah, ben's back from aussie after a year. guess there's lots he needa catch up in terms of food, and getting used to sgp lifestyle again. Day 1, met Ebel and Ben for food and shop. Then its more shopping with Ebel at Bugis while Ben head home. Followed by drinking session at Breko. 2 bottles at only $10. Not bad eh. Stepping into the 2nd day of my leave. Met Ervin for Bee movie and lunch, followed by picking Ebel up from work. Not knowing where to go, we actually head to 7-11 to get cup noodle, classic lays, 1L coke and this thingy we found!
Long Island Tea!
11% alcohol, yet tasted more than that. Then stopped by some road side stall to get otah. Head home, whacked all the food while watching supernatural and CSI. Slept over at her place, once again squeezing the bed with her. :) Today we are good. We live off without alcohol. Supper was at 85 market. Yum!
Oyster Egg
Bak-Chor Mee
Stingray
As for now, time to roll onto bed. Its 0320. Gotta meet precious someone for Lunch, maybe to church with Ebel. :)
Tired. It was another long day. Finally ended my long stretch of morning shift. 5 in a row. Im damn tired. I slept practically from the moment i board the train to outram (if im lucky enough to get a seat) and all the way from hotel combi to locker. Anytime when i could rest my arse on something. Went for hotel's soccer friendly match, which was kicked off at The cage in kallang. Then back to hotel for BBQ. Thankfully, daddy allan sent me home after that.
OOhhh.. so in love. i aim and i aim. Had a agreement with ah chong jie to survey now and hit the store in dec. :) Went to ah chong jie's place today to see baby rachel. She had grown so much. The last i saw her was when she's a month old. And now, she's turning 7mths! Time flies.
I weep when i read a friend's blog. She was writing about her gf's incident. Do anyone believe, two best friend could actually be in the same shit? Is this coincidence? Or god wants it to happen at the same time, so in a way or not, at the very least, someone does understand all that you're going through? To that friend of mine, BIG HUGS Interested in hearing a story? This may gets lengthy though. Love. What exactly is it all about? A moment, someone could tell you he's in love with you. And another, he's a complete different person. Here goes. These two person at my workplace (no names mentioned to protect their identity), who started off as so-called colleagues. They met but do not know each other. But soon, they started talking, due to the nature of work where you just have to communicate. Naturally, they became friends. One day, the girl was on night shift. And the guy, not being in her department, actually said he is staying back as he is starting early at 5 the next day. They chatted the whole night, and then, a second time came where he stayed again and he confessed, the main purpose of him staying is actually because of hoping to spend more time with her and know her better. He soon confessed he liked her. At first the girl wasnt really taking in what he says. Because she just sees him as a friend. They do meet up for dinner and shopping. One day, while they were seeing something in a mall, the guy hugged her from her back and held her hand. And thats when she realised, her heart was pounding. The very same day, the guy looked into her eye, and they peck each other's lip, naturally. They meet up still as usual, but they were more than friends, yet not couple. The reason is because the girl was attached. (Yeah, thats shit i know) A day comes where the girl popped up a question of what relation they were actually having. And the guy's reply was "affair or scandal". Disappointed she might be, that is not the worst. He was actually still holding on to his past relationship. A month passed, and she got to realise what he hadnt been telling her. His ex gf was in singapore with him. Though he said they are not together, his ex's frenster's status was still "in a relationship". She start to doubt but he insisted there was nothing between him and his ex. Things made a turn, they wasnt as close as before, and arguements arise. He claims she was jumping to unecessary conclusion. But yet, it was actually him doing alot that makes her in doubt. Calls and sms got lesser. He claims its because he's busy with work. Sometimes he told her he's home, yet she feel he's not. Its either he dont answer his call, or his hp was off, claiming its low batt. Yes, and now she realised she's in love with him. Now the thing is, she doesnt feel as loved by him as before. He denies the fact though. His reason claims to be, he doesnt want her to fall too much, cos he doesnt have a stable career now and he doesnt want a relationship. Then why in the first place he had to make her fall for him? She is tired. Yet doesnt wanna let go. Despite whatever people says about the guy, she doesnt care. I guess thats love. No one knows how to help her further. Should she let go or hang on? But now, he's asking her to let go. Yet on the other hand, when a guy called or sms her, he got jealous. He says shes contridicting. But he did not realise, he is the one who actually was contridicting. Guys, what do you all exactly expect and want? Why is it people dont treasure what they have by their side when they have it? Will they only regret after its not there anymore? Tired. im glad im single.
i knew this would happen. Been told everything was done and confirmed. Yet now, 4days away from the trip, you said nothing was booked. Leave was confirmed, and this is like.. DUH? nvm. Nothing to say anymore. Someone told me will bring me to KL. Shall see if that someone meant it. :)
Met Ebel, seems like we are in the same pile of shit. Damn all the guys who dont know how to treasure whats by your side.
Down with Fever @ 38.4 degree. It was a boring off day. Slept till 5pm and woke up with a fever and bad headache. Jacqueline had asked us to zouk for a private event of juice mag the day before. Kelly called up and headed out to meet them. Wasnt really in the party mood though. But we did not stay at zouk for more than 5mins. Initially planned to go for supper, till marie suggested we head to gotham penthouse at clarke quay. Quite a nice place with great male striper. Haha. But we knocked out. Feeling realy awful, fever got worst till 39.2 degrees. Called up hotel and reported mc. Woke up only at 10-ish, took panadol and went to the doc, turn out its not open till 6pm. Met kelly and wendy for dinner, both of them was like.. looking lost. Haha.. Guess evertone is just tired. Alrite. Time for medicine then to bed. :)
Would really appreciate if you can just get out of my life. Do you know you had been soo irritating. Lemme put words straight to you. I do not need anyone to tag on my board to reply my friend's msg TO ME! Get it clear, the msg is for me and not you. I do not need people to come to my house telling me to return this and that. You just lemme feel you want to let it be known. And also, my sis viewed you because YOU VIEWED HER. Well, thats obvious that YOU wanted her to view you back and know what is going on. AND!! This is between us. Dont bring in other people. Dont sms my friends and my sis. Cos they didnt have the time to entertain you. I do not need all these shit. Friends? I dont even think of it now cos you had irritated me too much. Learn this boy. Dont act like you know me very well. And pls, when i do not reply your msg, it should be obvious that i dont wish to talk to you. Understand? Stop sending me those msg of my friend here, my friend there. Many thanks.
