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Saturday, May 30, 2009

I took these few days back. Work of my Dad. Guess he was too bored at home.

He turned this ->

To this! ->

OK! Side view still look ok, like its in diapers. But look at the front!

I know you guys get what i meant.

And this, which i found the last. And felt the saddest for it.
From this ->

To this!! ->

Isn't that sad? I dont know if i should laugh at it. But i did when i found this.
And this poor little one, in this oversize bathrobe which is meant for another stuff toy. Now, that stuff toy is naked.

It might seem alright from here. But trust me, its not. And he project that pathetic look that read to me "save me!"

He also stuck this piece of thingy on my wardrobe.

its the chicken that makes me laugh. Not like he dont know how to write the word. So i really wonder why he drew it. I could only relate it to his boredom.

♥ @ 5/30/2009 03:47:00 AM

Friday, May 29, 2009

The peacocks are giving me a hard time since 4-ish with their "eh-oh" call and its 0530hrs now. Good one hour had passed and they're still going on and on. [~.~"]

Off day finally. Am already sleepy now. 2 more hours to struggle~
FO KTV later. Its all along 6-3am but heard we couldn't book that long this time around cos its weekend? But we pay!! Both me and bf's off day together. But we both have our own prog. He'll be heading down Butter Fac with his colleagues. So its gonna be a short meet-up later.

Just gotta accept in relationship, each other should have their own time with friends. Like bf always say, just as long as we both know we got each other in the heart.

♥ @ 5/29/2009 05:29:00 AM

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Halfway through 2nd night shift. While waiting for the reports to generate, so much pop up on my mind. On how i seriously need to save up, how i needa motivate myself to do so.

Made a last min move of appointment to Dental yesterday. Had my teeth cleaned and checked. I could not escape the need of surgery. But, i could go ahead with braces first. Results may turn out worst than how it currently is, although the teeth would be straightened. Suggestion is brace, surgery then braces again. I foresee the high cost coming. Therefore, the need to save up soon.

BF wanna cruise some time in Aug. I've done a check up, there is promo for UOB and Citibank cardholders. And pricing is acceptable, if its what it publish - $209+64(Taxes) for 3D2N Ocean view cabin with Balcony. Will call up some time later to confirm.

3days away to the anxious day. :(
p.s I can't access Stella's and Jeanne's blog on my netbook! Jeanne, as i've told you, its a blank page. And Stella, it suddenly fail to load no matter how many attempts. Bad~
A friend told me, she found out from her blog's tracker that there had been people searching for me on google search engine. One of the IP is found to be from Chai Chee industrial? Whoever you are, i hope, its out of a friendly gesture. :)

♥ @ 5/28/2009 03:56:00 AM

Friday, May 22, 2009

For you, my dearest friend.

I miss you equally much. I'm always a call away. :)
Tell mummy i'm good. I hope, we'll see each other soon.

♥ @ 5/22/2009 04:23:00 PM

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Two great movies off the list. Angels and Demons last week and Star Trek today. Bf and myself got the same off day. We decided to keep away from town and head down to AMK for movie. Its some time-off moments with him. But gonna be back to work tomorrow. Dont know what shit is waiting again. Got more than 10 complain sms from a colleague. Bad day for her.

Ive just received my interview appointment email. Entire session was said to be "would last approx. 3hours"!! Bf had booked dental appointment for me on the day's morning too. Yea, might be going ahead with braces again. Bf did his there and recommended the place to me. Doing check-up first. But at least this place allows me to forgo the surgery first, unlike NUH which insist surgery before braces and made me gave up the idea. If everything is ok, most prob would go ahead with braces and check out the results first. Might not be ideal but if acceptable, would not do the under-cuts unless really needed.

Ive serious anxiety on this interview. I hadn't been to one for damn long cause for my full time, I went straight to HR without interview at all. So that make it the last was during my trainee time. To enter the hotel for internship and that's good 8yrs ago~! Everyone, please give me all your blessings!!

Anyway, i should update on that soon.

♥ @ 5/19/2009 11:12:00 PM

Monday, May 18, 2009

I had so much fustration in me. All boiling up till im gonna explode anytime soon. Everthing just have got to do with me. And i had enough of it!

I just don't understand why he have to repeatedly tell me don't put work and personal together, when HE himself is the one. Once you kenna black listed, that's it! All the shit will just pile up, waiting for you. But before you talk about others, take a good look of yourself in the mirror. I merely check out a room, with a balance of $12.67. Called guest, guest had left hotel and ask me to keep the change as tips. WHAT IS FCUKING WRONG? Email swamp in, saying i pocketed the money for greed. WTF? You think its $120? Or $1200? Its ONLY $12!! Just go and think for yourself how much you had taken and kept in the so call fund. More like a imaginary fund that doesnt exist at all. All the money we paid for missing keys. I remember there's a time all of us splited and had to pay some $160 odd amount. And 13 of us splited. How much does that make up? Which fcuking hotel ask their staffs to pay for this kind of things that should be hotel expenses? Thats not all. The tips this particular company, which come a good at least 5times a year. Each time of $2-300 amount of tips. Where had they gone to? Said wanna pay for FO gathering. But when receipt come up, oh.. its too ex or pay for next one. Next one never come.

The load is getting so heavy. Spare others a road of survival. Why do people have to push others to the wall? He hit me with this the other day. Imagine yourself in the sea. You had just fallen from a sunken ship. Would you trap water to keep afloat or swim to look for help. He told me, he felt i'll just stay put, only trying to stay afloat. He thinks at my age, i ought to be fighting for a better position etc instead of being contented with my current post. No one is ever contented. But at the very least, i know im not the oldest one around. And there are many others who are holding a lower position with a much lower pay. So why only me?!

Quit abusing your authorities. It doesnt mean you as a boss doesnt make mistake. Its just no one dares to pinpoint it out. Its so tiring. I really couldnt afford to live everyday waking up, thinking what is laid ahead for me.

I felt ive grew up in this hotel. My first and only hotel ive worked for. Since internship back in 2001. Back then, I was only 17. Fresh from school, not knowing anything. I was being "forced" to learn. Put on shift all alone, doing cashiering and work like everyone else. Only diff is, I was only drawing $400. This, however had made me learnt much more than my other classmates who are also there. Full time for 5yrs. Adding up the 2yrs internship, ive been here for a good 7yrs. Knowing the place almost inside out, I really hate to think ive gotta leave one day soon.

Perhaps its the same at any other place. But like what me and baby always say - You'll never know until you try. Wish me luck for the upcoming interview. Its just 2 weeks away. Opening hotel. How would it be like to work there? Tough, i assume. But im willing to take all the challenge that have to come. Cause' its time i move on. To take a look at what the outside world is. Than to keep trapped in one. I don't have much faith that i would get the job. Given the overwhelming amount of candidates im competing with. But whatever it is, I'll move on. To others, if not here.

♥ @ 5/18/2009 12:31:00 AM

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Hadn't find time to update. Been busy with major group check-in the past few days. Finally things cools off. Back to merely 10 arrivals a day. Boss highlighted to us over briefing that in the financial meeting, its revealed hotel isn't doing well financially. We are not making any profits, neither are we making any lost. But barely made a tie. They are looking at serious cost cutting, terms of casual labours and requisitions. Hoping retrenchment is the very last resort.

Off day today. Went no.5 last night to hang out with colleagues and bf. Soundly asleep, got a call from xx to inform i had been shortlisted for an interview on 1June. Where it is, it'll be reveal if i got the job. Cos i didn't want much people to know about it and go around spreading words at work. Tired. Couldn't take the stress anymore. Going to work everyday wondering what is waiting in queue for me. Just cos i'm a senior. Just cos i'm a GSE.

Away from the unhapiness. Loading pics from the past few days!

Dinner over at bf's place on Sat. Sis brought baby Clare over to meet the grandparents. Presenting, Uncle Dan with his niece, Clare.

And we stayed over on Sentosa on our off day last week.

@ no.5 last night.

That's all for today! :)

♥ @ 5/14/2009 04:25:00 PM

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Just finished with the template. Its 0430hrs now. Time to bed!!
Will blog tomorrow. :)

Bless me with a good day at work~

♥ @ 5/12/2009 04:32:00 AM

Thursday, May 7, 2009

I envied seeing others having true friends. As much as I always thought I found one, I got disappointed that he/she turn out not to be.

Good friends wish each other well. Good friends is happy seeing the other happy. Not telling "I don't like your bf" or "you got your bf you dont want me" etc kind of seemingly childish phrases. People often do not judge themselve. Who would, chose to meet a friend when your bf/gf is avail? Why must one always think its others forsaking them and not they themselves are also doing the same?

I lost a good friend who I really thought she was the one. We did things together. We told each other almost everything. It just came in a flick. Our friendship developed over days. She encourage me to go for the things I want. And when I got it, things change. Shouldn't a good friend be happy to see her so called good friend too, find her happiness? Why are you contridicting, saying this initially and now the other?
She: "Hey let's go dinner one day at xx"
Me: "OK. Lets ask (her bf) and (my bf) along"
She: "Then you go with (my bf). I dont wanna go anymore."

Just what is freaking wrong?! Not like we dont know each other?
"I couldn't get along with the zodiac-dog."

Would a friend tell you this? No matter however much you dont like your friend's bf/gf, I still feel there should be a respect at least for your friend, moreover me who you called your best friend. BF asked me on several occasion. How long have you been good friend with her. Initially I didnt read much into it. Till once, BF said "She is very ironic." Why did he say so? She, on one hand ask me to protect myself from any hurt etc. Which i saw as a form of concern from her. But on the other hand, ask BF to be careful of me. And this is before we even started. I even wondered if she has any feelings for my BF. But then, it couldnt be the case cos she's happily attached.

Whatever it is, I'm equally disappointed in you. Like perhaps how you felt. "xx is disappointed in her." was her FB shoutout. I could only relate that as towards me. I had done my part to explain myself on a email to her. Whatever happens after, I dont wanna be bothered with anymore. Cos as far as I know, i've done absolutely nothing to deserve this shit.

You may read this. But i seriously have no offends. At the very least, if he had done something nasty to you, or not being nice to me. Fair enough for you to get cross. BUT!! Why could you get along with him before, and now that im with him you suddenly "realise" you cant get along with him? I AM HAPPY! He do things that no others do. I told BF over our phone call just now. I do not remember anyone who makes an effort to search and plan a place for a nice dinner with me. Or bother doing small little things to surprise me. All i could recall, was prob Jeremie. And that was like good 8yrs ago.

A feeling ive always yearn for again. Being repeatedly reminded how important I meant to him. Not being naive here. But you just know he really meant it when he says every word cos he shows it and not just say it! I've finally gotten it. Happiness. And there's nothing more i would ask for.

♥ @ 5/07/2009 03:58:00 AM

Monday, May 4, 2009

Swine Flu spreading. People says we who work in hotels has a bigger risk. How true is this?

Metropark Hotel in Hong Kong was sealed up. Staffs and guests are not allowed to leave the hotel. I start to think, what if a time comes it became us in this situation. Stranded on an island? I guess at least, we have the island to move around rather than them, trapped in a building?

Meeting on Wed at 3pm. Would be staying in hotel after work ends at 8am. How long the meeting would be, nobody knows. Said to be 6. But could get even later. Whatever it is, i know my rest is only from 8ish-2pm the most.

BF's off day tomorrow. Another little rest day. Prolly 4hrs of sleep. Had to go for my eye test. Hopefully had gotten better after not in lens for almost 2weeks.

♥ @ 5/04/2009 11:48:00 PM

Been sleeping very little. Drag myself to work everyday, fall asleep as and when i can. On transports, on trains, on buses. Night shift today, tried as much as i can to sleep to the fullest. Its 3pm, and im finally awake.

As said, some pics from Nad's birthday the other day.