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Thursday, January 31, 2008
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I dont know how i should describe how im feeling now. I dont know why are we replying each other on our own blog.
Seriously i've got nothing to say anymore. You've already put words across, you need me no more. Fine then i'll go. Everyone has their rights when it comes to friends. Its not like im telling you i fell for him, or we are together. I knows where we should stand, and i know what i should and shouldnt do. I trust ben knows it too. If we were really what we so called best friends, why cant our friendship withstand such a small matter? You just cant take a little feedback, or something bad about yourself. Humans should give and take, accept with a big heart and not behave this way just because you heard something that you dont wish to accept or hear. im not at all upset over your call to me when u're at hospital with Queenie. You still dont see the picture, so no point for me to say much anymore. im not gonna be so kid-ish, digging up all the past and talk about it now, WHEN WHAT HAPPEN NOW IS A COMPLETE DIFFERENT ISSUE!
So i hadnt been around for you. I had been a lousy friend who you doesnt need anymore. There are many others beside you. But to me, you are the one and only i could talk to, who i thought of, who i cried over whenever we quarrel and who i really treasure.
I doubt we could go on. I doubt we could be back to be what we were. Sorry.
Take good care of yourself. And same here, thank you for everything. You'll be missed.
♥ @ 1/31/2008 10:14:00 AM
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Wednesday, January 30, 2008
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Ben says: Retail Therapy works well.
I hell agree to it!
2nd bonus coming in two days time. And so i pampered myself with what i waited so badly for months - LV neverfull :)
Woke up at 8, super kiasu afraid there would be long queue and ran out of stock islandwide again. Turn out they delayed the opening time. Head to mos burger for breakfast cum lunch, back to the boutique and its already packed with people. Glad enough, when i asked for stock availability, reply was "oh, stock just in this morning!" Price was increased a little. Still.. nothing beats my love for it.
im happy!
:) one off the wishlist.
♥ @ 1/30/2008 02:05:00 AM
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Monday, January 28, 2008
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Been wanting to change the templetes and now i finally got the time to do it.
Well, in case anyone wonder WHY its patrick the starfish here, haha i fell in love with this creature when i was in malacca.
HAHA. And no, not through the cartoon. I had not watched sponge bob for more than twice. We saw and got this in the malacca zoo. I got Patrick and Thomas got sponge bob. But i rename mine to Thomas, cos all of a sudden we just thought they look alike~
[Xin-Dai] says:
check out my blog quick!
bom chika wah wah... says:
okok
bom chika wah wah... says:
why u pic my pic there
bom chika wah wah... says:
thomas the starfish
[Xin-Dai] says:
but my thomas tummy slimming down eh
bom chika wah wah... says:
give u press until flat right
[Xin-Dai] says:
i dunno eh
[Xin-Dai] says:
but i hug it to sleep
[Xin-Dai] says:
many times too small wake up cant find it
bom chika wah wah... says:
...
bom chika wah wah... says:
dont torture my twin
See~ He thinks they look alike too. Be proud i name it after you. *wink!
Actually wanted to get the bigger one which we saw at the night market in Jonker street. But 2nd thought, i had like tons of stuff toys at home already. And i aint young anymore. I guess next time when i gets married (if i ever) , all these are gonna fill up the whole room! I will scare my mum-in-law away!!
Tired. Time to sleep. :)
♥ @ 1/28/2008 12:09:00 AM
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Saturday, January 26, 2008
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Its meet the sun day.
Super packed plus obvious missing number of deck chairs. I wonder where they gone to. When we finally got one was like close to 2hours later. Great sun, but didnt have time to stay for long. Sis got a date with bf, and when i checked my phone, Ben smsed he's on his way. OK, im not late cos of myself but cause' i waited for my wonderful sis who took sucha long time to shower. I guess i kept him waiting for like close to an hour. Extreme packed orchard, lunched at this "lousy service" sushi place as describe by Ben. I didnt think so till we ordered for soft shell crab and chawamushi. We finished the chawamushi, finishing the drinks THEN one guy came and say "er, i forgot to tell you we ran out of soft shell crab." And my reply? "Thank you eh." cos we waited like 15min? Caught Death Sentence cos thats the next available show. I was like crying through half of the show. And i bet im the only one doing so. I dont know why but was kinda touched by the family love they share, the lost of their son and i could like put myself in their shoes and feel how they're feeling. Oh btw both sons looks cool to me. Haha. There's this part where the dad was killing some people to revenge his son. He was having this gun shot scene with the "boss" of the gang, and both was wounded. Somehow they just sat side by side on this bench in some abandon church and look at each other. I just laugh and im damn glad in a way im not the only one laughing. That saves some embarassment cos i seriously dont know what im laughing at lah. The dad then pulls out a gun, which was not expected by the bad man. And he cried as the dad ask: Ready? And im like laughing real loud with the rest of the people except BEN! He must in fact have thought we are crazy and says we spoil the "cool-ness" of that scene. *Roll-eyes*
Went Takashimaya to get Jane's pressie after dinner. And now, sweet home but guess its gonna be bed time soon. Gonna be a busy day at work tomorrow with hundreds of departures.
♥ @ 1/26/2008 11:31:00 PM
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Friday, January 25, 2008
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Disappointment ain't even enough to discribe how im feeling now.
Was i kicking up a big fuss? All i barely did was to voice out. If that is a mistake, would you rather things be kept within forever? Do you think that would be healthy? If i don't blog it here, who would you expect me to speak to? And i trust you agree its one's choice to blog whatever. This was said by you.
I no longer know how to keep this going. It was always my mistake. always me not being understanding. Then why not tell me how you would want your "perfect" friend to be?
Wierd to meet up? I had already done my move. I went down to your shop. You think that was just a passing by? I purposely told Karen to meet in PS, so that i could drop by to see you. Things seems ok. But it actually isnt. And i can seriously tell you i detest it when people behave one way, and say the other.
How does it appeal to you when one is so nice to you, but at the back of it said something bad?
Enough said. I can only say, we ain't kids anymore.
♥ @ 1/25/2008 02:03:00 AM
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Thursday, January 24, 2008
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Read this on Evon's blog, about my zodiac.
It says generally, i had moved away from the unstable year of 2007, but 2008 is not going to be easy for me too. Health is one of the top concern this year. Would be more prone to falling ill due to extreme low immune system. May have outstanding performance in my career, but is important to preserve a positive mind, and be selective in who my allies are as there tend to be more power struggle. Money matters would be quite tight (#@$!) And this would be a fruitful year for relationship.
Oh well, now.. How accurate are these? Sometimes i wonder how those people came up with these so call prediction on horoscope and zodiac. But it gets freaky when some part are pretty true. Believe it or not, its better to be safe than sorry.
♥ @ 1/24/2008 10:54:00 AM
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Tiring night shift. Busy with phonecalls, wake up calls, room service orders, arrivals, departures, transfer booking, reports. Yes, my job is about everything. I seriously think we are so underpaid since we're like doing everything. Didnt have time to finish the reports on time, morning shift came, took over and finally managed to leave at 9 (when work is supposed to end at 0730)
Been having much gastrics recently. Sometimes it hurts till i cant talk. Its gonna be off day in two days time. I need lotsa sleep!
For you, who i hope had been doing fine. Seeing you happy is all i want. Its been a week. Is it still between us? I had not heard from you since then. Take care my girl..
_______When you walk away, i count the steps that you take.
Do you see how much i need you right now?__________
_____________When you're gone, pieces of my heart are missing you..
♥ @ 1/24/2008 03:18:00 AM
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Friday, January 18, 2008
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I wanna grow old with you. I need you. And i love you. We said we wont argue over the slightest matter anymore. But when are we really gonna stop and do what we agreed? I want us to stand by one another, cry and hug each other when bad times comes, laugh loudly in the world of our own, act lesbie, hook one another's hand as we walk down the street, and act stupid to cheer each other.
♥ @ 1/18/2008 10:50:00 PM
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Thursday, January 17, 2008
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im feeling like shit.
No offence on this post. But i hope you know how i feel.
I had always taken you as someone i really treasure, someone who im really willing to do everything for. Perhaps to you, i hadnt done enough.
Its your birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY my sweet girl. Perhaps this post shouldnt come today. But im really feeling bad now. It is your 21st. A time where most of the people take it as a special day. I took leaves as wished by you. Should had taken 5, but i took 4. 2 were at the chalet, one we were supposed to go club. The way you question me makes me feel like you want me to go back. But im afraid i mis-interpret your msg and ended up leaving you on your impt day. So i waited till you say it yourself. Back home, you called telling me you're alone, i wanted to be with you, you said no. Till this morning, you told me you wanna be alone. Many times you behaved like everyone have to understand you. But in actual, you made people feel lost, not being able to guess what you're thinking. You made me feel so like a spare tyre, where you'll be with when you need, if not then go away. Call me your best gf. But i dont feel that way. Sorry if im being blunt here. But im realy not feeling good. And you made me hate him so much. When he needs to meet you, i have to go. When im with you, i ignored everything, even if someone i really wish to see wanna meet me. Why? Cause you matters, and that is the very least everyone should do. Perhaps you hadnt know how it felt. Think about it, how does it feel if you're with someone, and the person told you, she's gonna meet another person, and left you? How do you feel if someone asked you to her chalet, ended up leaving you to sleep on your own while she's out with someone else? I feel so like a idiot. And im tired of all these.
No one needs a friend who call you a friend at this moment, and treats you the other way when they got someone new. Same goes for me. If you thinks he matters more, then finds me only when you think you really needs me. Sorry.
♥ @ 1/17/2008 03:55:00 PM
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Thursday, January 10, 2008
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It was a hilarious night yesterday. Met Jo, Anders and Andrew to have some drinks at Clarke Quay. They kicked off at Hooters first, then to Crazy Elephant when Hooters shuts, and thats where i met up with them. A cocktail was already waiting for me, but the place IS also shutting so had to gobble down the drink quick before heading to the next place, Attica. It was a cool place, and its gonna be a new hang out for us. Got kinda tipsy and i guess me and Jo fell flat. And someone tapped on me, grabbed me by my arms and ask me to get up. It was soon that i realise there is another hand on my another arm. It took me quite sometime to realise it was the bouncer, and they said "You have to leave". I remembered asking them why, and they just keep repeating themself. And they told Andrew we cant enter again. Ha. In short, i guess we are being "thrown out" of the bar. OK that sounds embarrassing i know.
Jo puked lotsa times along the way, and Anders decides to accomodate us at his place. He made some Bacardi and i puked like free. In his bathroom and he was jumping screaming "dont you fcuking puke at my sink!" Ok i guess we owes him big apology, we were like making so much noise along the way to his unit, and he was so worried the security would come up.
Was woken up by some smses from the duty manager, changing my shift to night, which im so grateful for in some way. Fell asleep with contact lens on, and was really struggling hard to get up. Ordered Mac delivery, and they didnt know where was the place. And when they finally did, it was more than an hour later. And now, finally its sweet home. My head is still spinning, and i really needa sleep.
♥ @ 1/10/2008 02:12:00 PM
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Tuesday, January 8, 2008
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Princess Rachel is growing up fast.
When she was just born.
1st month.
And her hair finally growing. She looks like a boy here.
And this, is my fav. pic. Cheeky girl!
Chong jie is so happy she could clip up her hair now. Ain't she sweet?
Big eye chubby girl.
Isnt it amazing how babies changes in looks in sucha short time? Baby rachel is now 8months old! :)
♥ @ 1/08/2008 12:21:00 AM
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Monday, January 7, 2008
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Back from the short, yet enjoyable trip. Thanks guys for the company. :)
Zoo;
Don't ask me what was i doing. I dont know why every candid pic Ethan took of me is so dumb.
Though the two of them had been "irritating" and disturbing me at all times, still i know you guys love me la. Thanks guys! :)
Lastly, a pic of us.
Ethan, xindai and Thomas.
Christ church. i've finally been there!
The long ride back to SG.
And thank you for making me feel pampered after so long. You know who you are. :)
♥ @ 1/07/2008 12:39:00 AM
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Wednesday, January 2, 2008
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Start of the new year. Time to let go of all the unhappiness in 2007.
Hopefully many things would change for the better, with all the unecessary people out of my life. That would make my life alot better for sure. I dont know why people's skin could be so damn thick, knowing they are not welcome, yet could still appear. Anyways, i dont give a shit cause you aint even a fly to me.
Mum is getting more and more annoying. Coming up with her wonderful tales that only my dad in the whole wide world would buy. Some shit about china woman coming to my place asking for ransom, claiming her husband has an affair with her etc. In short, she's just trying to see if my dad would blurt out anything. And sometimes she would say things like her friend saw this and that. But being her daughter for 24yrs, she cant escape that look of making up lies. It was funny. I showed her a pic of a primary sch mate of mine whose parents and mine were rather close. She was close to 6mths pregnant in the wedding gown. And my mum says "aiya now pregnant get married very common already. Don't old fashion." Next, she make noise about me keep staying out, keep being around guys etc. I was like, you just said till you're SOO "modern" and now? Thats like slapping her own face. And she was telling me, last time when my dad tries to ditch her, she refused to and insist him to marry her. Haha. And we are kind of having an arguement cos she's just too annoying. Will be away from home for another two days tomorrow. And she nagged as usual. Having another wedding dinner coming up, she's like "already not working at your place, why still must invite you all. Your friend so into ang bao ah". Doesnt that sounds so Duh? Not working together means not friends? Must only invite people who works with you? And she even tells me next time when i get married, dont invite all the unecessary. Colleagues will do. Then what if im a taitai and not working? Thats dumb.
Enough of irritation. Well, NYE went absolutely well, despite having to work. The moment i alight from the bus at the lobby, the whole hotel was like transformed into a disco. We were practically dancing openly at the counter and lobby, singing and singing even when we are doing check in. There was this live band of 6, playing and singing from songs of 80s, 90s, retro, rnb and whatever we all just know. They MUST come back again next year. I wouldnt mind even if i have to work!
♥ @ 1/02/2008 09:38:00 AM
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